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Within and Outside of Expectations
TL: Daemon
ED: PuffyPyjamas
◆ Hiiragi Haruka ◆
For lunch break, we met up in the world history preparation room for the first time in a while.
It really feels like such a long time since we’ve been able to sit down face to face while alone.
Thinking back, for the past two months, I feel like I’ve been skirting around trying to run away by making up excuses every time I was asked if I had any plans. It’s true that I was busy, but I also had my worries for Seiji-kun to think about.
If you were to ask something like that of a 17-year-old high school student, they might actually say that everything was fine as it was. However, that might only be said because there was no other choice—
“Good work.”
The door opened and Seiji-kun came inside. My face tensed up a little. Seeing as I was acting this way, the perceptive Seiji-kun seemed to have realized that something was up.
“Yeah. You too.”
Instead of spreading out our lunch, we exchanged some casual conversation between the two of us. I already knew about Seiji-kun’s test results before Seiji-kun told me, but I still wanted to talk to him, so I started off with a topic that I understood well.
“Well, aren’t tests kind of just like this? If I work hard starting the summer of my senior year, I’ll make it in time like I did last time.”
Last time? I was curious, but if Seiji-kun is fine, then I guess it’s okay.
We didn’t sit down, we didn’t spread out the picnic sheet, nor did we open up lunch. It felt somewhat unnatural, but Seiji-kun never questioned that sense of incongruity.
The conversation came to a stop, and a long silence followed. Is it really okay? I don’t know how many times this question has come up within my mind.
“Seiji-kun…?”
“Hmm?”
I told him what I thought, what I felt. Then, I told him that I wanted to end our relationship.
His hurt expression was one that I had never seen until now. I understood that I had hurt someone I was never supposed to injure.
“No matter what I say, this might just be my ego… Sorry.”
The shaking voice of someone throwing off the person that they love, sounded as if it came from another person entirely.
“Is this a decision you are making while thinking about me?”
He might think that it’s my own selfishness. He might label me as a terrible woman.
“As expected, it comes down to this…”
Seiji-kun muttered in a low voice. Within his saddened expression, there seemed to be some semblance of calm.
“I understand.”
I could never imagine him being super distraught, nor could I imagine him wailing and crying, but contrary to what I thought, he was quick to give his understanding.
It was anticlimactic in that there wasn’t any entanglement.
In truth, I wanted him to be sadder. I wanted him to get angrier. When he nods his head so easily like that, I can only think that this relationship only meant so much to Seiji-kun. It’s selfish of me to say that though after bringing up the breakup.
… Aaah. Probably, no, most definitely.
I might have been scared of Seiji-kun’s maturity—no, more than that—his ability to look far into the future.
Without revealing any of his emotions, he accepts logical arguments. If our positions were to be reversed, and he were the one to break up with me, would I be able to think it over logically?
I was definitely scared of that.
From now on, many other wonderful and charming women would definitely appear around Seiji-kun. That’s even the case now.
It’s not a lie to think that there are more suitable and attractive women for Seiji-kun.
I was afraid that my beloved person would end up throwing me away with no room for discussion. That’s something that I end up thinking about unconsciously.
“It isn’t like you fell in love with someone else, right?”
I shook my head with all I had.
“There isn’t any other reason. What I told you are my true feelings.”
“I see.”
Then that’s good, Seiji-kun muttered.
“Since I’m only a high schooler, Hiiragi-chan is the only one that I can see, and I have no other options. So, you’re thinking that there are plenty of other wonderful women to meet.”
“Yeah.”
Hiiragi-chan… He isn’t calling me Sensei or Haruka-san. Aaah… does he perhaps normally call me that within his mind? Since he can’t afford to smooth it over within himself—
“No matter what path, it’ll take 10 years…? Aaaah, then, once I turn into an adult, after meeting various other women, what should I do if you’re still number one. What if I still love you all this time.”
“What should you do…?”
I don’t know. How would I know? It’s not like we broke up because we hated each other. Just those words made me happy inside.
If you still like me, come back to me. There’s no way I can say that, especially as the person who dumped him.
“There will definitely be great people that will show up for you, Seiji-kun.”
“Maybe, but even if they do appear, I don’t think I’ll see them. After all, that was even the case for the present me.”
“What do you mean?”
“It’s nothing.”
Even though we’ve just broken up, Seiji-kun somehow looked a little refreshed.
“As expected, this is how it is. What Rei-chan realized was probably…”
He continued to talk to himself as he left the room.
The sound of the door closing felt eerily loud as the preparation room returned to silence.
I felt mentally tired, causing me to lean back into my chair. I don’t have any appetite, so let’s daze off for a bit.
Just as I was thinking that, the door slid open.
I was wondering who it was when Sana-chan appeared.
“…”
A bunch of tears could be seen around her eyes, and her mouth was formed into a frown.
“Is something wrong?”
“Sana just happened to see Nii-san walking down the hall, and thought it was weird. He looked nervous, or anxious… That’s why Sana came here.”
She probably heard it. The conversation we just had.
“Sana-chan, eavesdropping isn’t very polite, you know?”
“Be quiet!”
Sana-chan walked over, and then raised her hand. A dry sound, like the popping of an inflated room rang from my cheek.
“Ouch!”
My cheek became hot, and a numbing pain spread from it. I finally realized that I had been slapped.
“Why did you break up with Nii-san!”
“You have nothing to do with it, Sana-chan!”
“I do! After all, Nii-san was crying!”
Crying? However, that didn’t look to be the case—
“The moment the door closed, He walked down the hall crying—he immediately entered the bathroom.”
“B-but that isn’t a reason to hit me!”
“It was a promise! With Nii-san! If you made Nii-san cry, I would hit you!”
I grabbed the hand which she had raised to hit me once more.
“Such a selfish promise—”
“You’re the one being selfish! Making Nii-san sad at your own whim—Sana will definitely never forgive you!”
“What do you know, Sana-chan!?”
“Sana doesn’t have any interest, so that’s why Sana doesn’t know! You’re perfectly beautiful like some sort of announcer, always smiling, and capable of doing anything! I’ve always hated that part of you from the start!”
“That’s what being a ‘teacher’ means!”
“That doesn’t matter! Sana might not have any interest, but Sana at least knows that you ran away from Nii-san’s feelings!”
Once again, this girl… stabs at the core—
“Because of love, you’ll break up. I don’t want to hide my thoughts from Seiji-kun, so—”
“You’re just using that supposedly adult-logic as a way to armor yourself as you hurt Nii-san. Using an excuse like that as a shield, is something that only works in 2-D!”
We fought for an extended amount of time.
Due to the door being left open, our screams could be heard from the hallway.
“What happened?”
A teacher, who had sensed that something was wrong came into the room, and pulled Sana-chan off.
“Let go! Let go of me! Sexual harassment! That woman is—”
Sana-chan flailed about as she was pulled out into the hallway, and was taken to another room by a counselor.
“Hiiragi-sensei… what’s wrong? What exactly happened…?”
“Ummm…”
If I were to tell them what happened, I wouldn’t be able to avoid explaining how it came to be. At worst, Sana-chan could be suspended. It might even affect her grades. The moment that she hit me wasn’t witnessed by anyone.
She would never say anything that would cause problems for Seji-kun. I trust her for that. That’s why, I’ll believe in Sana-chan.
An emergency staff meeting was held, and all afternoon classes throughout the school became self-study.
“It’s all my fault. Sanada-san did nothing wrong…”
Sana-chan continuously refused to talk. When asked about the situation, I told them that it was my fault, and gave a bunch of lies before asking for Sana-chan’s forgiveness.
Because of that, Sana-chan’s situation ended with just a warning.
“I’m limiting your options”
That’s what dating is -_-
If he dated anyone else, it’d still be the same situation.
And why the hell did he just accept it???
If she stopped having feelings for you, then maybe… but she said that she didn’t… so why are you suddenly just f***ing giving up???
“I want to change the future” and then when the break up event happens, he does absolutely nothing -_-
Why???
Thanks for translating this
Absolute trash. I wasted my time reading this mess. I was so sure that the author would be able to deliever and boy i was wrong. I’m completely done with this story. Even if they some how get back together years later i’m done. It’s a waste of time i spent on this mess over needless drama. Even the mc sister knows she is a moron for doing what she did. I’m so done with this author and his work at this point. I’ll have to keep in mind the name of this author, so i never read a piece of their work again. This could have been so good, but turned to complete garbage. :/
Man, that’s almost the choice I made 13 chapters ago. Lost faith when Sana started having depression because her brother didn’t give her enough attention.
I read one of the last 13 chapters. The rest I just skimmed while checking to see if the drama was over. The author obviously sucks at whatever he was trying to do recently, but there’s a chance the epilogue will be as nice as the old beginning chapters were.
Calma que aún falta, vean a futuro amigos, yo sé cómo acaba y es un final bueno para ambos
That isn’t a good ending. That was shoe horned in because the author knew he would get backlash from it. They should have never broke up in the first place. The sister had a right to beat her ass up. She is a moron. If this was real life, this wouldn’t have worked out. Hell at the age she is at, realistically she would have a low chance of having kids. Once you get up to 30 as a female, your time starts to tick. And it gets harder and hard to conceive. This is why the japan population has gone downhill so much. Because of stupid mentality like this. Sorry but to me the author did what they did at the end so they wouldn’t receive too much backlash. This story could have been such a good romance. But ended up being lackluster. And what is more sad is harem genre stories end up doing romance better than something that it’s main genre is romance does. That is just really sad and a joke at this point. :/
I still can’t believe the author really came up with something so dumb.
I know everyone is giving it hate but please finish off translating it.
That was the plan
I want to make it clear, the hate isn’t for you(translator). It’s for the japan author for writing what he wrote. It wasn’t necessary of him to do what he did. The story could have been so great, but like i said he crapped the bed at the last moment.
not going to lie i had hopes for this and really enjoyed the story until random drama was introduced and now this. I really disappointed the story went in this direction and expect to be even more so by the ending that is about to unfold. thanks for all your work translating and hope you finish it so we can all see what unfolds at least as disappointing as it will be.
Yeah the japan author tried to be too cute with the ending. Then at the last minute thru them back together many lost years later. Probably the publisher or a friend told him don’t do that. And he made the ending that happens. So he can save some face. But the damage has been done already sadly. :/
This isn’t the ending though, it has 3 more main chapters and a side chapter it seems. You seem to be the overly emotional type who gets mad over any slight changes in a story I think you were also shitting up a storm on the death mage wiki for basdia as well, the story isn’t done and you’re already making a fuss yes this part is stupid but this novel has always been throwing contrived and garbage reasons to oppose the mc and fmc since the beginning
Actually no, them breaking up like that from her end didn’t make sense to her as a character. Especially in how much i know from what is written she loves him. Hell she would get super jealous of other females in general. It makes no sense for her to do a one eighty like that. Especially all the work the mc put into trying to make things happen. It was needless drama the author added at the near end of the story. There was no need for it. Why can’t authors just give readers what they want. And not some garbage like that. I can literally name stories that had done things better romance wise. Even a few harems that did a better job then this story did. There’s nothing that was written previously that showed things would end up like this at all. There were mainly hints from time travel of them ending up together. But things weren’t quite what he wanted. And he made some changes here and there so many would be happy. So i’m actually right in that what was written before and all the stuff they went thru together. To have something like that happen wasn’t necessary. Yes i follow death mage. But why i was mad with that which i have calm down from since technically the mc and the female i was complaining about weren’t in a relationship at the time. But i just thought it wasn’t a good move by that female character. Also it didn’t help later on another female character literally said it isn’t something she wouldn’t have done to the mc. That is another reason why i was mad from with that female character. But at this point i’m over it, since there’s a lot better waifus in the story then that female character. Trust me it didn’t bother me enough to stop reading death mage. Otherwise i would have dropped it. It in hind sight was more a nitpick than anything else. Everything else in the story i enjoy overall. 🙂
There’s only 1 more chapter right? Hopefully we’ll be able to read it soon.Kinda disappointed by the ending,but I enjoyed the journey.Thanks for TLing the series dude!
haaah…this bunch of bastard and retarded who comment before me…
when you falling in love, the world lay before you will instantly changed and vice versa
and now, what is love definition again? for me, it’s the feeling of the combination of 7 virtue and also 7 sin, you have to balanced this 14 or you will fall into toxic relationship
from what i see so far, there is no problem between them (both of them), its always the MC who fixed the future, that is the problem, there is no problem !!
thanks for translating this work
sorry for my bad English